Condescencion

My bad Gorgonzilla.I forgot you had an online existence.
But this is not Gorgonvilla & I'm not listening to you.So stop giving me a hard time over it.
Another time would have made me stand up,excuse myself and walk out.I had violated no class norms.This is my portal.I do what i want.
But this is no hate blog.As i keep saying.So we're concerned.
Anyway.It was a fun day in Nowhere-at-all.Nowhere-at-all was cheerful and welcoming.Nowhere-at-all felt like sheltering everybody today.
So there was that.And there was this.And then there was shit.
Honestly.How far do you take a joke?
I get the whole student-teacher antagonism.But do you just create an issue for the sake of it and risk getting a teacher expelled for nothing?
A new teacher at that.Because she's easy target?What is wrong with all of you?
Getting the sack from a Birla school.And where would that leave her?
Because its entertainment?Teacher catfight?Are you kidding me?Have yall completely lost it?
What am i even asking?Of course they have.
I am sorry i grinned.I tend to be sadistic.But emergency holds a completely parallel definition for me.It is not timed and pre-ordained.And i know a few students who really burnt the candle at both ends working over it.Not to mention all the hordes of disappointed students.
So well.The farewell got cancelled.And the hopelessness crept in.
It might be routine for some.But for some it is a defining moment of their lives.And they deserve compensation.
Happy Holidays everyone. =) Have a Good one.

"uaaann.....missh ishh shcolding me.............uaaann"

i do not call this childish....i do not call this childish at all..
i call it stupid..really really stupid..
"misshh...*sob**sob*.....u were not there...*sob**sob*......she shcolded me....*sniff* *sniff*............and she shaid...u are baadd....and...*sob*...ugly.....uaaannnn..."
isn't this exactly what happened???i mean...ppl...wat is ur age exactly??
simply a ploy to create a scene...and we all know how good the actress is at that...
cudn't stop staring at the teacher's face.........she looked so saaaaaddddd.....shocked.
and the tiffin time....am not sure wat all that was....how it all started.....the actress was there...and it did..
the whole thing shouldn't have happened....atleast wat i think..
let's see how it continues after scul reopens..

Fare thee well =D

Today was pretty much unbelievable.
And we are definitely unbeliev-ABLE.


And then there was an empty classroom.
Coloured chalk.
Two friends.

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=P

Mon-thursday

Busy week.
Class. Work. Not class-work!
Over- confident people.
Lame Jokes.
Banana! In my pocket. (Its been there for 2 days now. pocha pocha. Thats how it feels.)
Script. No script.
Open insults.
Selfish people.
Efforts at convincing. *Pleeasssee*
Blank.
What?
Awkward Movements.
Bieber. She's all over! :p (YUCK)
Sneh Desai. CRAP. SHIT. DISPOSE.
Swollen faces.
Broken bonds.
Stupid decisions.
Empty classroom.

This is War

Have you ever seen a war?I have.
Welcome to your class.Where everything is only happy on the surface.
Left Wing has declared a conflict of interests.There are numerous internal conflicts going on.And you're about to see a class-A "Mean Girls"-esque Girl World War.But only if you're observant.
The course of this war is to be seen.The civilians may rejoice.They are being notified.Its a grand show. X_x

 Insecure people are such a drag.

Alright.

Alternate Curriculum. O.*

Che Guevara.

Hilarity.

Anxiety Tests?

Bunk

Desk!

Not feeling too vocal.Or literal.So i'm talking in tag language.
Impromptu art shows that school takes you to.There's a first time for everything,yes?Brightens my day.
Supervisor that expects you to spend 5 minutes in an entire floor of paintings and sculptures.Like they weren't works to be interpreted but local graffiti?Not so much.
I don't remember much of the week.
Petkoff.Hahahahahahahahahahaha.You call that a library period?Why?Because i'm using the furniture?Gee.
Stupid forms.Serial bunking.
Sociology classes which were the usual i.e. fun.. x)
Leave it be. =P My mini Che's will make a comeback. Honestly?I cannot tell you for sure if I'm absolutely Commie.I just happen to like Kitsch.
And thank you for the raincheck.
=) hah.

"career counselling"???

what the hell was that???
NO WAIT,plz someone tell me exactly what we did in the english class today,because i seriously fail to understand.
what exactly was that women saying??
"school life is the best life of your life"??????
who the hell told the teacher we would like to "discuss things"???
why couldn't i just sit and read my book??
exactly how many times did she say "like"?????
and after all that,she turned out to be a biology teacher
i had thought she would be a counseller....a very bad one at that!
STANDARDS STANDARDS!!!!!!

chilly .lecture. crap. drab.

Woke up, before that stupid alarm could wake me up , saw the time, yeah! I can sleep for 10 more mins!! :D
6.45 : Disable .
7.00: Fine. I'm up.
Late as usual, ran to my stop.
That kid. arghh. With that stupid "you're late again,* hehe*" expression on his face. Idiot.
I felt the cold air against my skin. And i felt the guava in my pocket.
Bollywood shit is what i could hear . ignore. Ignored.
bhumbhgngvfgbbgj (the lecture)
Future . Drugs. Alcohol. blah blah.
New Counsellor?No. errr.
Welcome to psycho
We deal in all sorts of non-sensical stuff.
Wanna have some? Here goes.
Definition of a Class In a School- Group of children with homogeneous ideas. WHAT?
The book. the face. My watch.
The bell!
1 Name. 1000 spellings.
Repeat mode.
POP. dOODLE!
Yap yap yap. giggle. Shut up!
Ohkay. Mouth shut. But i can express myself! *Expressions* ;)
How to develop ur personality in 40 mins.

Okay, so.......

Saw the school bus first thing in the morning.
Everything else before it had been dizzy.
And pretty much like every Monday morning.
A little despair + a little more drowsiness
nothing special...

Saw the expressions on their faces...
As they watched their child.
Watched their child board the bus.
And find a seat.
And get the bag off the back.
And wave goodbye.
And another goodbye.
And then turn away.
Wow.
How long would that last?
I'm guessing class 6.
Anyway.

Saw the school ground.
Saw the cocks shuttle.
Saw the birds flutter.

Saw the board.
I didn't have a quote today.
Saw the board again.
Does anyone even care?

Saw KLM (NOP).
Smiled at them.
They always smile back.
Always.
Except Cracket Cruncher. (grawwrrr =D)

Saw the time.
Heard the bell.
Its not fair.
Hardly was.
Hardly is.

Saw my copy.
The dictation.
Dictation.
Like I dont have enough at home.

Saw the lib-rarely.
Saw the librarian.
*frown*

Saw the raindrops.
Saw the "Tourist" arrive.
*smile*



*smile gets wider*
FIRST HALF- 6th DECEMBER- THE END.

December 3

i saw em.
*scribble* *scribble* *doodle* *scratch*
*scribble* *scratch* *erase*.
the box and its occupants.
the stares.the whispers.the giggles.
the book!
the people.the hook.
fisheye.
yes i saw them too.
well somebody's getting married.
the blushes.
the game.
they heard me too.i think.
did they hear me?
i hope they did. 

back from vacations..

finally..the phase is over....
SAW the phase geting over....
draining away.....bit by bit..

saw some fights this week.
and bitching sessions.

new building.
saw the classroom full.
but that one seat empty.
sad.
still went over everyday.

see new friendships formed.
saw shocked expressions.
"what???!@#$%^&*"

saw an answersheet.
supposed to be empty.
miraculously filled.
luck...by chance.!

rufnrtibhdgvnmb;lnlj

Boarded the newly painted bus, after a bit of running!
Yes . today. i felt like was on a tour bus and not a school bus. :p
Met my fellow blogger. Hello. :) followed by a warm smile! and then *same pinch* :p
The classroom. pretty much the same.
On. Restart. Not again.
Letter. Script. Song.
Rack. shake.
blame and critcize.
Empty.
...........
...........
Gargu returns ;)
Less of shit.
Lucky :D
I hate school. thats what i say. and so does my badge.
Caught. I dont need to explain why i'm wearing that.
You wouldnt understand. Stop gathering around me and leave.

Led Zep is crashing through my head Rusty.The rocking horse doesn't rock enough.

Fallacies of Non-Existence

For some reason.
There will come a time.
When you don't want to recycle.
Or reuse.
Or reduce.
You just want to go to the market and buy it new. Fresh. Non-fucked-up.
Put the old one in a vacuum sealed bag. And burn the goddamn thing.
Has your time come?
If not.
Enjoy school.
:D
Long story 
Cut short.
A lot of abuse
And no retort.




The world keeps turning. What goes around comes around. Right?


Or maybe not.


Hidden curriculum folks.


Hidden Curriculum.

Another day. Another Casualty.

But that wont happen to me??

Saw the bus.
Entered the bus.
Why isn't anyone scared?
You're all going to the slaughterhouse, remember?
Abattoir of minds?
Believe me anyone?
Guess not...

Saw some of those people whose presence you feel.
But you dont really approach each other.
Its an understanding, maybe.
And as per the non-existent agreement, you don't say hi. Unless your eyes meet.

Saw a board full of nothing.
A copy full of nothing-induced something.

Saw chaos.
Was i engulfed? No.
It wasn't exactly a mob.
Potential mob??
Doesn't matter anymore.

Saw her vomit words.
Gargu, as Deep Within says.
Draco, as I often remark/report/reiterate.
Saw people hold out their hollow notebooks.
Fresh puke.
From a stale Duke.
I mean duke.
I mean duchess.

Saw the gates pass me by...
I stayed where I was.
And I swear, it was the world that moved.

Dragging myself, yet again.

********************************************************
Back. I find myself in the same place. Lazy, once again.
Socially useful period wasted....once again.
Had lots to do, had lots to deal with.
Excitement. Confusion. Dealt with all of it.
The horse. Uncle Oscar. Not again!!!
Break. Not really one. Headache ::
blah. blah. blah.
Gargu, gargu have u any shit?
Yes please, yes please
2 periods full.
SHIT
***************************************************************************************

Weird Day

Saw an empty space
Realised that it was temporarily so...
Decided not to notice the emptiness too much
Till it fills up.
Again.

Saw the school terrace.
Longed to make it there.
Snap Snap. Cut her wings
Fine.
I'll escape later.

Saw pens dance.
To the tune of monotony.
Blah blah blah
Lets do the blah blah blah
Saw a futile discussion on what is better.
Counting pages and counting letters.
Saw the liliput elope.
Audacity of hope.?.

Saw her again.
Saw the day I'd meet her.
Saw that day in my mind.

Said something and felt weird.
Did something and felt weird.
Scratched my eyes till i couldn't see them see me.

Came back to class
Hindi notes
Lali bloats...

Saw her.
She makes me feel weird.
But I like her. Weird?

Saw the box empty. Quickly.
Saw the air relax a bit.

Saw the gate.
I went through it.
Like everyday.
But it was different today.
The weird weird.
Not the usual weird.

Felt lost.
And not found.

Come back tomorrow.

You know you have to.
Cause you don't have a choice
And you don't have a voice

Happy Childrens Drain

Goon-mal is back again.
*Was back again.
EM EL EE lame...

Saw excitement.
The usual futile fluttering.
Run run runaway?
Maybe...but not now.
But not now.
But...
...

I was kind of hungry.
But I ate no entertainment...
All I ate was cheese popcorn.
No corny crap...
No cheesy shit.

Gave the doodles a last look.
Saw a red hollow frustum that was attacked by a Linc Ocean gel, belonging to two certain glow-in-the-dark aliens.
But what could they do?
They were under attack too...right?
Right?


Came out in my alien costume.
Went back into the herd.
Blue alien sheep?...?!

Saw my fellow blogger
"Long time, no post"

I guess school gives you more to dump.
Even the walls are made of shit.
And they keep renewing the paint
Like the stink isn't stinky enough;
Like we haven't figured out yet...


Why don't they tire of counting sheep?
(Please take me away from here)
Bet they're all too tired to fall asleep.

I dont like to make myself believe,
That flocks turn s-lowly

b.i.t.ch -plasticines.

school reopened,blog.did you know?
neither did i.
but they did.and they told me.so i knew.
back to the drudgery.
maybe i really needed this holiday.because.well. O.o i don't feel the same antipathy towards IT anymore.
or well.eeehyeah.it'll take time to set in.
IT has got a new fall-winter image makeover.
its all yellow now !! O.X
yellow ochre..i think.i'm only good with b & w.
Monet once said something.along the lines of :
"colors are my daylong obsession,joy and trauma"
psychedelic,isn't it? 
interesting person.huh?
well.this yellow.doesn't make us feel any more warm or welcome.no,it doesn't make us any happier.
how could it?when we wonder that those hideous board thingies on the ceiling might actually be hiding spycams?
and Tagore wanted us to study amidst nature.
Tagore.our pride.our culture.
hah.when will you practice what you preach?when?
of course.i don't really have a problem.i've given up on IT a long time back.i don't care.
free periods that feel expensive. and expensive periods that feel free.
could this be a joke?
i'll find out tomorow.
eccentricity zindabad.
mass produced robots.die!die!die!  =D

*...*

Saw ...
Yes, saw '...'
I don't care if you don't get it.
I cant describe it. But, I can prescribe it.
Cant remember much, too.
Of what I did. And what I had to do.
...

brr.. >/

what has it been?a week into the holidays?
honestly? i can't even tell for sure.the holidays make you so lethargic to things.but then again,who am i kidding?its not like i'd know the date even if school re-opened and it wasn't written on the top-right corner of the board.by somebody who actually cared enough.
okay,again.who am i kidding?everybody cares about the date.
weird.
oh,now i get it.i'm rambling.well let's ramble a little then.its the holidays..and i have time! [well,atleast i do right now,don't i?]
err.okay.so what follows is my own unique[well,i hope so.even though,i definitely don't think so] ramble session.
don't get me wrong.i read the papers.i do.and i know the date is written in white 'times' font in the centre of the black horizontal line that runs along the whole front page of the paper in thicker font than the other pages.in the other pages,it runs a little thin comparatively and its higher on top.below the name of the paper.i haven't figured out which font they use for that yet.must be the signature brand font or whatever.
now that i'm done rambling.let's get to the point. [yes,finally]
what i saw.
fine,i'll tell you what i saw but you can't blame me for what i saw because that is what i saw.
[i've been reprimanded for constructing long complex sentences by all prior language teachers i've been a student to]
i like to elaborate.deal with it. =P
i saw shady alleyways.and smoke.a lot of smoke.that i was forbidden to see.
in my room.on her roof.in that pub.on the streets.
i actually,kind of saw it everywhere.
i saw dinghy hole-in-the-wall places where old and exhausted men went to blow off their steam.i saw them stare at the invasion.
hijacked.
i saw my city from up so high,decked up in lights for a week of wishful revelry and celebration.
i couldn't see the poverty.it was too hazy.
the height made my vision blur.
its like they'd all packed up and left for someplace they wouldn't be subjected to the line.to the divide.
until the festivity died down.
or maybe the lights had made me blind.
i saw nothing of worth really.
except loneliness.
i saw a lot of loneliness.
randomly,everywhere.
the bulls.and the bull-fighters.and the ropes.
do they really think the ropes would stop them?
oh,i forget.the rifles would.
and the sticks they weild so liberally.
for your own good.
^ biggest lie ever.
i'll be 17 in half a month.its sad.
another year.and i'll finally have to "be real".
here are a few pics,of what i saw: 
[the quality sucks,there's only so much that 1.3mp can do :/] 

8th Oct.

Woke up.
Saw those swollen eyes in the mirror, yeah, so i get a reason to bunk.
Nah. I cannot do that.
Left for the stop, without an umbrella.... kept on waiting, think i've missed my bus like every other day!
Managed to reach . Found myself somwhere in the middle of the road, cars on both sides, saw people make faces. fine.
Saw the red haired lady!yikes!
Saw an almost empty classroom.
Saw some with textbooks.Making notes. Errr.....
Looked out of the window.........
Saw the class. It Looked Happy.
Saw some idiotic ones, saw them laugh at her.
Saw the drawing book, its empty pages. Saw it later. Wow.
Saw Modern Times. Saw Chaplin dance. :D
Saw the way out.
And the way in.
(And saw so Much before it)

Hah.

Wow.So that's probably the last i saw of it.For a long while to come.

But i liked what i saw.

I saw gaps getting filled up.I saw the emptiness disappear.

I saw the distance losing its length.Effortlessly.

I saw smiles on faces where there were none.

I saw so much to feel happy for.So much to take away with me.

Almost enough to actually make me miss the routine. ^.0 huh.

I saw Rafa in granite etched onto my left brain.And gushes that i am sure were accompanied with blushes about him on my right brain.
And my eraser ate them all.With relish. *spooky grin*
I saw someone poking the fan on the ceiling with her umbrella.With a befuddled expression.Alas,the mystery was lost to me.
And how did only two sets of eyes notice it? o.^ Do people do that all the time in their planets?They throw bottles in mine.And paper balls.That ricochet through the place.
I saw play-acting.And bonding.Giggles and whispers.Photographs.
The clouds gobble up the sky.The room-->The lounge.I saw her wake up and observe the people she'll be spending the next two years in school with for the first time.As she tried to reach out.
I saw the field which actually had grass on it once upon a time.There's mostly uneven patches if at all now.
Masakkali in the mud.
I saw my Pol Sc book.It has asked me not to disturb it in its slumber.Not for 3/4th a month.And i've promised it i won't.
Cartoons.I saw complaints against the rubber bank.
I saw the teacher reduced to doing our dirty work.Chairperson of the rubber bank.
I saw the book.That is supposed to teach us the the science of life.At 17.
Might as well have delayed it by another year.Shoved us out with a manual.Do's and Don'ts.
Definitions.You name it.They lame it.
I saw people say their goodbye's one last time.
Till we meet again.
The cat's out of the school now. *smirk*

The Revival

Saw bubbles.
That burst as our laughter.

Saw attempts at Bangla.
Hilarious.

Saw abuse.
Meant to amuse.

Saw a saw.
Shearing story books.
Saw smiles spread across faces.
Despite that.

Saw money.
Counted money.

Saw fingers.
Katti.

Saw a drawing book fill up with puddles.
Of love.
Of Love.
Saw KLM come alive.
Yet again.

Saw giggling. Heard laughter.
Giggled. Laughed.

Saw a note on the board.
T'was for me.
For the banker-me...

Alrighto.
Time for vengeance.
Saw the Sociology teacher.
Approaching.
OMG-
Saw everyone on pause.
Saw my finger point all the way-
Saw her questioning her.
Saw her walk out.
Saw fingers.
Double katti.

Saw Peeked to see better.
Saw our maths teacher.
Shedding dead lice all over the place.
Thus,
Saw my class again.
Saw those faces.
All happy again.

Hands waved.
Saw Bye-Byees.
Fingers raised.
Saw Bhaafs.

Gave the class a last look as we left.
"El-heaven H,
Happy Holidays Y'all!"

Saw light falling on two desks.
*Kalimba-Mr.Scruff*
:D

October the Sixth...

Another day beckoned me,
Saw myself approaching it...

Saw work.
Saw worklessness.

Saw my iio paper.
Easy.

Saw people reacting, as we stared (at them till they noticed)...o_o
:D


Saw a wildlife quiz...
And saw goof ups
Was it the sound system, the host, the participants or the audience?
Don't know.
Maybe all...
Saw foolishness coming from foolish people.
What was I expecting anyway?
Saw indifference.
Saw no 'road'.
To no 'hope'.

Saw someone I didn't expect to see.
Saw the blue eyes.

Saw chaos.
Saw chaos again.

Saw beauty.
Followed beauty.

Saw the sky telling me its late.
I know. But I don't want to-
Go.

Saw water going down the drain.
How long before there's no more left?



Didn't see the bookseller.
Didn't see the time.

Wanted to see the bookseller.
Didn't want to see the time.

Over

Coma White- Marilyn Manson


I broke my ID card. That day. The I fixed it. But it broke again. I tried to talk some sense into it. The darn thing refused to comprehend. It refuse to comprehend Feviquik. Poor thing.
Looks like I won't be seeing anything for  long time.
I saw interconnected Venn diagrams. I love those things. I saw proof of psychological string theory. Which is basically a souped up glossy version of chaos theory. Feeling smart? Anyone? Me neither.

Vision impaired

I saw a bus stop in front of me
Saw my kaku peeping from somewhere
Saw blue and some grey people flocked inside.
Like there was someone in a pink building, at a distance, waiting with a knife in her hand.
Waiting to sacrifice. To slaughter. To kill.
To destroy exactly what we live off.
'Life'.

Saw an almost empty class as I entered.
Was I early?
Or was everyone bunking?

Saw disappointment in her eyes.
?&#@! I said what I didn't want to again.
I said what I didn't feel again.
I made myself misunderstood.
Again.

Saw the same faces come back from yesterday,
In the same places.
With the same people.
I wished I could go talk to someone.
But I saw my box.
And didn't struggle to get out of it.
Saw the box again, wishing someone else would see it....
Neruda was right,shyness is such a kink in the soul...

Saw here and there
Panicked.
She has to come today.
Saw her enter.
Smiley emoticons dancing around her.
"Yayy!!" I saw.
In invisible ink.

Saw people trying to join.
Not the people who know the meaning of 'join'...

Saw books.
Saw crooks.
Saw exactly what Hopelessly Sanguine and Deep within... said they saw.
A pumpkin faced freaky liliput.


Saw a lot more.
But my mind wasn't processing.

Vision impaired,I felt the breeze slap me.
What did I do this time?

inflate,

huh.what did i see?
did i even see anything?no,i didn't see.
i didn't see see anything today.i was just out of it.
all i really saw was the storm clouds.and the storm.
all i could see was the rain.all i could see was my desk.
i didn't want to see.
left brain.right brain.
trees on LSD? :P
oh wait.i know what i saw.i saw two kids on the street.schoolkids.propaganda.
i saw tiger skin[?] while climbing up those stairs.
bam!class.
there's not even enough space to let loose.
climb up the stairs and into the monster's waiting mouth.hah.
*enter class* i saw her.wishing i could be doing the same thing.
and then i saw them.
i saw her come into the class.two periods of monotony.laws that went over my head.
i saw smirking distraction.and smirks on the faces around.
i saw the weird teacher on her weird patrol.err.weird.weird.
i saw the sari.i liked the sari. :P
and i read what cook had to say about the freaky teacher.
i saw said freaky teacher staring at me.one wrong move to pounce on.
her regime.
i saw student walking up to rub away said quote.
i saw her get really angry.. why was she angry?O.o it was just a joke.
okay fine.a hilarious series. *grin*
and then i saw inspiration.motivation.
i saw the joy and passion that sadly so many teachers i've been taught by have lost too soon.
i saw grins and nodding heads.and agreement and unity.
and then i saw them.
but they didn't see any more of me.




 

a day out of hundreds...

saw a wannabe the first thing in the morning.......trying real hard...
saw an empty bench......its gonna remain empty for some time now..
saw a real artist.....after a long time..
saw HER really disgusted at our enthusiasm! she actually expected us to be upset??!!
saw some nyc people in a not-so-nyc class......not ours btw..
saw some girls falling all over really ugly looking guys!! do they come from some other planet?? if not...then i wonder why.....
saw frustation..............in the extreme.........justifiable though..
saw some nyc frnds staring at me...feels gud to have atlst a few gud ppl in a class lyk ours...
and............saw the trees welcoming one of the best weathers ever! awsum way the wind was blowing.....hair all over the face.,,,just the way i like it!

Saw the girl, saw the depth in her eyes,the smile that spread across her face.
Saw the teacher, her pumpkin face, saw her sharp nose inflate!
Saw the black board, saw what we had done, I smiled at it! :)
Saw the way she reacted. The way in which she pulled me inside to face "them". That didnt stop me from saying what i wanted to. i said something. atleast.
Saw the left and the right wings of the eagle. Saw the antagonism between us.
Observed everyone in class.
Stepped outside. Wanted to stay there. The roaring sky & the dancing trees made me happy!

Illusionistic Likeness

I met hopelessly sanguine and thus came to know that this blog had been opened.
Fatigue weighed heavy and with the onslaught of classes, I didn't get much to see.
A board full of equations.
Books as fat as they can get.
Question papers for an olympiad.
The same monotonous routine.
Went to the next class and saw my friend's empty chair. It had been empty for the last two days but her black bag was sitting on it today.
Saw Hornbill.
The bell rang. Rushed to the next  classroom again. Found my friend taking notes. She wouldn't talk. Got a little angry, went back to class. Saw her again.
Saw white against back.
Saw the grey clouds in the sky. Heard the wind howl. Felt it blow my tucked shirt out of place.

What I saw?

To be honest I didn't see much.
I definitely didn't see the point.
I saw that they didn't see the point. Maybe some did. Not sure. Even if they did, the point got lost in all that blue. And the ID cards.
If the ID card is not exist on your body, you will be in trouble.
Sing along, anyone?
Not much else we can do.

0ctober 3rd-Busiest day of my life...YET

Saw an empty chair beside me, an incomplete doodle, a small void
Saw shining trophies rust secretly
Saw my marks.
The vision was two seconds long.
I thought of someone who would've done the same...

Saw everything and everyone move real fast...truth is,i was running real slow

Saw receipts
And I saw receipts

Saw a second-hand book shop somewhere near school
Bought two classics.
Rainwater-painted pages on the first.
Saw a huge rat bite at the sides of the second.
Saw no reasons to have a problem. Kept em in my bag.

Saw the CD collection of a taxi driver.
Realized just how much of Himesh Reshammiya still resonates somewhere.

Saw kids who just wanted to have fun. But that was too much to ask for...
Saw another kid who told me she flew with her tiger one day. They were both wearing wings.

Maybe she was lying.
Maybe she was not...

What I saw in school-the past few days...

What i remember, from what I saw in school (last three days, i guess. But I can never be too sure. My mind sorts according to importance instead of time, mostly)

I saw blue aliens enter alien stronghold
Saw myself looking pretty much the same
looking blue feeling blue.
Then, saw something
That 'something' that cheers me up everyday.
Saw doors.
Saw stairs.
But I did not escape.
But I did not climb.
Saw a 'black'board that was green, and minus the quote of the day...
Saw reasons to love my class, and not just like it
Saw the shallow eyes of my classteacher, with a frown that completed that extremely well-known expression, hideous in every sense
"...Miss, I just don't think its S.U.P.W..."
Saw her storm into a room, and thankfully, storm out of my view.
Saw my friend in tears.
Saw a frozen situation, that remained frozen for a long time
Saw normalcy seeping in, but slowly, like always
Saw someone staring at a badge on my shirt
felt the weight pulling me down.
Saw cowardice.
Saw cowards.
Saw obligations turn into invisible ropes.
Nevertheless, saw Citizen Kane.

And then, I shut my eyes
But, my mind still worked...

I entered the class , i sat, looked at my desk, where did all of it go?
I saw the black board. (We all fall down)
I looked out of the window.... but what did I see? Nothing worth remembering.
I saw the error, the one which had to be ignored , now that i had seen it.
I saw the dancer, her expressions, i saw it all in her.
I saw the girls, their faces, the response they gave to the one who was trying hard to do something.......
I saw the eagle, i felt like smashing her face, i somehow controlled myself.
I saw that teacher, not the same anymore. I wondered why.
I saw those papers in my desk, i stuffed them in my bag.
I saw her again, the one who was trying to make a difference, saw the hope in her eyes......
I saw that girl, dissapointed, i saw another one, engrossed in a conversation, least bothered......

and what did i see......

today................
i saw a typical example of the rat race...right in the morning.........that too from "friends"!
i saw an unhappy girl........but upset for really small thngs.....wonder how they get upset over such insignificant things,when there's so much more to shed tears about...
i saw the spicmacay performance......and some stupid questions and some gud ones..
i saw some teachers who hav no freaking clue about talent!
i saw my english paper....but lets so not go there!
i saw my socio prac paper.......pretty gud..
i saw a girl trying really hard to get her friend to talk to her.......failed attempt!
i saw a 2year old kid who had come to collect her sis wid her mum.......staring at the scul grounds as if it was a 40,000 acre big forest.......remembered how small thngs filled up our minds when we were kids.......less complexity!
and.....................i cant remember wat else i saw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well i saw..

i saw a half-empty class.remain half-empty.
a woman.i saw a woman perform for SPICMACAY.kids trying to please a teacher,
i saw a teacher.who wishes she was so much more.and she is sometimes.i saw an inspiration struggling.to come through.
i saw passion.
i saw an army of young,bored and restless students.i saw an army waiting to pounce out on the world.
i saw the woman again.fleeting in and out of these nonsdescript thoughts.the enchantress.i saw the energy.the audience spellbound.
i saw the authority.cynical and heartless.judgemental.
i saw an unnecessary mockery.i saw it again.
i saw my english paper.undermarked again?i saw it twice before it went inside my hollow bag.
saw it because that was the right thing to do.
saw the wrong thing too.saw the little actions that remind me of the rat race,i saw apathy too.
jubilation.i saw pride and happiness.
and then i saw some more.
i saw a teacher fall down in the middle of the road.waiting to be helped.
help that never came.because i saw.stepped forward a little.to see better.not.nevertheless.i saw.
and i saw people oblivious to her.disinterested.absorbed in themselves.they did not see.they walked away.
the teacher saw.


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